Jen Milben

Some of this may not make sense without reading my about me blog first. But here goes. I'm now on day 5 of titration, about to move up to 50mg of Elvanse. I was discussing some of the effects of the ADHD medication with a friend of mine when he asked me if I had felt that "before the meds [I was] doing things quickly, just for the sake of getting them done, like there was an imaginary deadline of your own making - like you were on a treadmill? But now, [I] have more time to decide the direction of travel, moment-by-moment?" When reading this, I felt that it may have been an impression of what he was feeling, but it was very different from my experience. So, I sat down to write out exactly what the last week had felt like. Before taking Elvanse, it never really felt like I was doing things quickly; more that my brain was constantly going 90mph thinking about the things I had to do, things I've said, things I was going to say, the washing up that needed doing, the loung...

As you can probably work out, I'm Jen Milben. I created this blog as a way to anonymously get my thoughts out and about. Unlike some anonymous writers, I won't be using this blog to spread hate or fear, but rather to be brutally honest about my feelings and the things that happen in my life.  A lot of this blog will be about my adventures through a neurodiverse life in a neurotypical world.  So enough about the blog, let's talk about me. I was assessed by CAMHS for ADHD & ASD (or as it was known then aspergers) as a child. After the assessment, the doctors diagnosed me as a "rigid child". A diagnosis that I don't believe has much medical credibility. I went through school and adult hood as a "rigid child" with my parents and teachers never understanding why I could coast through tests with a pass but never able to revise.  Low and behold, I wasn't a "rigid child", I have ASD & ADHD. I was diagnosed with ASD at 19 and ADHD at 20....